Sunday, December 31, 2006

The Waking


[image: marilio campos]

"I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I feel my fate in what I cannot fear.
I learn by going where I have to go.

We think by feeling. What is there to know?
I hear my being dance from ear to ear.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Of those so close beside me, which are you?
God bless the Ground! I shall walk softly there,
And learn by going where I have to go.

Light takes the Tree; but who can tell us how?
The lowly worm climbs up a winding stair;
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Great Nature has another thing to do
To you and me, so take the lively air,
And, lovely, learn by going where to go.

This shaking keeps me steady. I should know.
What falls away is always. And is near.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I learn by going where I have to go."

--Theodore Roethke

Friday, December 29, 2006

pour homme chique
















[image: terry richardson]
man, the break has been nutso.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

midnight in a perfect world


[currently listening to: dj shadow - changeling]

my little piggy
has 10 hot pink pigletts for toes

of pixelated conquests


[image: steven meisel]

cher isobel,
this is our randomness in tandem.

Perhaps I'm a bit perplexed by the fact that the blurred lines between reality and fictional characters can be so indiscernible to some individuals. The strong nose of false distinction held way up high above those around you holds true even in real life. Oh right, I forgot that you're a Don, a commander of powerful armies, the caesar of today's modern times. Women fall for your dangerous lifestyle, cologne heavy in eau du misogyny. Your pixelated gun collection draws enough attention to make your enemies rotten with jealousy. Apparently you have nothing to compensate. Your off-grey suit makes you look sharp and cheap champagne - classy. fucking balls, my ass. The confidence you exude is seriously live action satire... only problem is - you're obvlious.
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In other news, some random commentary from MBLOG:

"War, Cherubs, is the #1 clambake on the planet – even more so than Bill O’Reilly’s latest book. More time, money, and effort is invested in developing, selling, and implementing tools of destruction than any other enterprise on earth – including condom sales, which, by all accounts, should be through the roof. Because let’s face facts – sex is a far better enterprise than war.

Killing people is a goldmine. Finding new and fascinating ways of ripping the human body apart, slowly burning flesh away from bone, exposing it to such high heat that it basically disintegrates, corrupting and neutralizing the central nervous system – all of it is bank. Then there’s the hardware needed to make sure that it all goes off without a hitch. The vehicles, the helicopters, the aircraft carriers, stealth bombers, submarines, and the logisitical support provided by all of those patriotic contractors.

That, my friends, is progress. Not capitalizing on illnesses in the name of profit – though Big Pharma does pretty well and has some fantastic tricks of their own – but real progress, like taking something as devastating to the human body as a large bullet and adding to it the ability to burn your insides as if washed in an acid bath once it punches a hole in you the size of a golf ball.

Progress is being able to sucker kids into loving death by playing video games in which they can launch devastating ordinance from miles away and watch them decimate pixilated buildings and people. It’s those same kids that end up sitting on ships in the Persian Gulf with their finger hovering over a button doing it for real. Progress is found in the fact that having palyed the video game before hand, they can envision how ‘cool’ it’ll look when that ‘baby’ blows to shit whatever it is that it’s being launched at.

Progress is being able to say that you have a formidable and highly advanced military capability and aren’t afraid to use it, no matter what the cost to your principles, because the truth is that your principles are based on having a formidable and highly advanced military capability.

Nations such as the US and Russia, China and Great Britain, have impressive military capabilities. All of them are also nuclear powers, the first two being the world’s preeminent nuclear powers. So is it just me, or does anyone else find it somewhat telling that a group of fanatics can hijack airplanes and fly them into buildings and they’re called lunatics, while the five permanent members of the United Nations Security Council are responsible for almost 90% of the world’s conventional arms exports, arms that find their way into the hands of children in Africa pressed into military service, and even the hands of the very ‘enemy’ that the ‘civilized’ world is supposedly now fighting, and they’re championed as being just?

Comedian David Cross probably put it best - “You cannot win a War on Terrorism. It’s like having a war on jealousy.”

In the name of dethroning tyranny, a country was invaded and occupied. And now the justification for not abandoning the folly that ensued is that too much damage has been done and too many people have died.

That’s progress."

--Matthew Good

Saturday, December 23, 2006

when manatees were mermaids





This past year has been fraught with lows... too many lows. But in that fragile state, you just never know what salvation you'll find as a blanket for vulnerable wounds.

And so ends, 2006.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

beware the coelocanth


Vancouver Aquarium!!! At long last, I finally got to see it after so many years of wanting to go there as Simon's surprise for the break. A whole bunch of renovations were made so it was absolute awesome-ness. Erek was the tour guide since he volunteers there so the three of us were being uber geeks busting out the invertebrate/vertebrate knowledge. Despite the spitting of rain outside, the day was very pleasant.

Dinner was Stephos, as per usual. Afterwards, the night got more interesting - my first trip to the Penthouse. I think in that respect, I can safely call myself a pink chauvinist pig, lol. Who said strippers can't be empowering?

Monday, December 18, 2006

zai jian zai jian


[image: pompeya]

Today I saw monsieur mathematique for presumably the last time, perhaps ever. He's off to do three years of service for the Canadian forces as a front line medical officer - 6 months of training in Pakistan and the rest to be served in Iraq. I think for him... it will be a step in the right direction. Despite having the capabilities of flourishing in any Ivy League school to pursue dreams of research, I think his goals are personal.

So today, I took him out for lunch and then he bought a bunch of lego and maple syrup... like a lot of it. Ah well. Sadly enough, Yukina is being shipped off to Tokyo - I'm going to miss the white beast.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

va bene



buona notte...

Friday, December 15, 2006

up down in and around


[image: quena]

i have so many things to show and tell.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

see, the thing is...


[image: el_caro]

See, the thing is, I sleep is so important before an exam.
scheisse scheisse.
so in other words, I will be drawing circles and stuff on my exam papers.
it will be GOLDEN! Times like this, I wish I had Dr. Blake for ecology (ironically enough) because I actually went back to his 1st year notes to study. And plus, he'd accept my cartoons of beer wielding giraffe monkeys to explain postulates for evolution.

I think i'm going to take a bubble bath.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

alchemy of tomorrow


[image: tamriel]

no doubt,
i am a monster.
voracious hunger in my seeming quest
for tomorrow's backward alchemy
-- turning honest men to coal and dirt.
my fingers, stained black
mechanically breaking down good intention.

I place a two large bay leaves over your eyelids,
a small smooth seed in your mouth
and kiss you on the nose...
-- sweet carbon breath.

no doubt,
i am a monster
for your reincarnation
to life
--revitalized.

(grow.)

Monday, December 11, 2006

the persistence of memory


[image: misha gordin]

Two more to go. Man, I don't know how the hell Ming can write 9 effing finals... and they're all like, hardcore pharmacy courses too. k, back to work.

...it's only a paper moon


[currently listening to: Ella Fitzgerald & The Mills Brothers - It's only a paper moon]

I have a confession.
I really miss Sadie and Neeko.

Sunday, December 10, 2006

how often


[currently listening to: rufus wainwright - complainte de la butte]

how often is it that we see genuine happiness?
An honest smile, the acknowledgement of joy? bliss?
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Right now I am so stuffed full on korean bbq ribs it's not even funny. Earlier today I paid a visit to a very opiate-derivative induced boy up in the north shore and dropped off a bunch of stuff - National Geographic, Scientific American, Adbusters, mystery novels, shit reading and a giant mensa problem solving book. I know I'm probably an uber pervert for reading scientific journals about the sexual positions of bonobo monkeys... irrelevant in life I know - but their social systems are super interesting. I should've included a picture colouring book.

Growing up, I went through a whole bunch of wild phases methinks. I bought into the whole anti-globalization, anti-sweatshop, anti-consumerism, Adbusters movement after being exposed to my anarchist socials studies teacher in summer school. Later on I was fascinated with underground electronica culture... then to mindless rave culture... IDM... then I found Matthew Good <3. Nowadays, I'm a sideline admirer of haute couture. Whatever the case, I doubt I could ever incorporate myself into either extremes of the anti-consumerist movement nor participate in the mindless art of self-adoration in excessively expensive accessories. meh, it's all inspiration. life is about balance.

knowledge, is indeed - power.
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Furthermore, does anyone have any problem with Stephane Dion holding dual citizenship for France and Canada as leader of the liberal party? I really don't see how it can be a conflict of interest... The dual citizenship question can be a problem understandably (ie. the sudden influx of refugees from the disaster in Lebanon hit taxpayers deeply)... but in mister Dion's case, does it matter? heck, he never voted once in any french election or hold a french passport. I thought we were a country that celebrates diversity and multiculturalism.

whatever the case, canada has quirky politics.

"The Inner Life Of A Cell"



Before the final, my biochemistry prof showed us this video that the folks from harvard released. The video shows some of the mechanisms one white blood cell goes through internally in response to some external stimuli. I guess all those sleepless nights spent cursing at textbooks finally pays off because it's nice to appreciate how it all falls together. Actually, the body is amazing... the fact that we're made up of ba-jillions of little cells that all go through these complex as hell processes simply because it's thermodynamically and entropically favourable? That the probability of electron cloud densities of effing atoms fall in place just perfectly to allow for molecules to interact the way that they do (I am so ready to strangle schrodinger's cat)?... The free energy that exists today was exactly the same as during the time of the dinosaurs... nothing gets destroyed or created in the universe, just recycled. Without proteins, we are nothing. The way everything falls into place in living organisms is simply do to random effing mutations and natural selection. But what then, of the mind? The individual consciousness? Do we simply differ by the unique set of chemical reactions that occur in our body - is this what drives the mind?

Saturday, December 09, 2006

like an unf i n i s h ed... drawing.


saite mitanara, sugu chirasareru.
sadame kanashi to, ariramete
naki-wo misereba, mata nakasareru.
Urami-bushi.

say what?
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random notes:
Anyways, I'm tired and I think I'm kinda getting sick. "Lemongrass" is my new favourite Vietnamese restaurant. I didn't realize that my grandfather had served briefly for the brits during the japanese invasion in wwII. The opium wars made for interesting times. The finch laid another egg. My brother has an addiction to some ridiculous rpg computer game called Maplestory. I spent too much money on baci and pancetta meat. I still sleep with Enrico. I miss reading real books. And lastly, I am still a firm believer that art and science is beautifully intertwined.

Friday, December 08, 2006

il bacio


[image: cole rise]

Perché parlare? Tutto l’amore si dice in un bacio.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

statz grillz



"Run a test on me baby, I wanna see your statz"

I'm really am studying, I swear!
In other news, I need to change my shirt...

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

what makes you smile?


[image: meninazul]

waking up.
sometimes, I can't help but look back and wonder how everything fell the way it did. is it easier to claim that ignorance is bliss? when i become old, i will sip from that delicate china cup and smile. in the meantime, i have a bed to call my home - my playground for humble dreams.

I was going wtf as well


[image: film still - Destricted - Hoist; Matthew Barney]

Okay, I love art. But I can't believe I spent 15 minutes watching that weird film. The first 4 minutes was an underwater shot of what I thought to be a sea cucumber of some sort but it turned out to be a peen getting hard. The next 3 minutes was spent on watching some Japanese tanker hoist up machinery. The last 8 just didn't make any sense at all. It was basically Matthew Barney rubbing his peen against some rotating white piece of machinery with a rhubarb root thing hanging out of his ass.

This was supposed to be a film to comment about where art meets sexuality. I fail to see where it connects - except for maybe the fact I won't be eating geoduck for a long time.

Monday, December 04, 2006

The red red lips of some secret solution


Maybe just to look into your head light
morning glow
--MG

Sunday, December 03, 2006

hmmm


k, stephane dion is the new leader of the liberal party of canada. I don't know, I can't really see him as the next prime minister. Maybe he needs more moxy. Quebecois accent aside, he seems like a nice person to talk to... but I secretly prefer Gilles Duceppe - now that's a dude you could have a beer with. k, maybe not. politicians are never ever sexy.

um, yeah.


fshhhhhh pk pk pk prakoooooow
mreeoooooooow fshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh pew pew pew

Saturday, December 02, 2006

私が君を見れるよ。

"You're just too marvelous, too marvelous for words"


[image: blackdog]
[currently listening to: prezioso ft. marvin - rocking deejays]

man, I don't know why I'm so tired. After going to Dr. Warren's hardcore biochem review session in the evening, I went out for dinner with Erek and Simon - the evening ended shortly thereafter. I can't wait until exams are done - there's so much shizz to do before school starts again. Caitlin is off to Mexico and won't be back for awhile. Here's a proposed list of things to do after exams (non exhaustive):

- clean, gut and sterilize my filthy room
- body worlds 3
- coffee with cait
- day with george
- learn how to make kick ass rice triangle thingies with beaty-san
- toe nail painting-haagen daaz-misc fun slumber party (shut up)
- snowboarding on the 20th?
- rock climbing
- brainstorm posters, buttons, campaigns with sasc
- paint and read
- new years with siavosh, arvan style
- mini road trip?
- lots and lots of pampering

hurry up 2007!

police brutality




[images: ana voog]

pink moon beautiful.

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My goodness, my head hurts. I was sticking up posters all over campus and handing out purple ribbons all yesterday morning. December 6th is the National Day of Remembrance and Action on Violence Against Women in Canada. This marks the anniversary of the murders of 14 women at l'Ecole Polytechnique de Montreal in 1989 because they were women.
Violence is a reality - it goes beyond gender, sexual orientation, social status, race, religion, etc. What will you do to end violence?

Friday, December 01, 2006

The battle of heart and mind.

My father once told me that the heart and mind can work at odds with each other. Often do, in fact.
"So which is better?" I asked him.
He tapped his lips with his finger tip for a while and stuided me, then he said,
"The heart, cara mia. Everyone has a mind, but not everyone has a heart."

--Randi Hacker