just...

bar to bar
for one.
another one.
stumbling through
concrete grass,
glass -
on the rocks.
in everyone
glory box, playing in the background.

amon tobin

[image: uvaspina]

i am feeling like a
four ton
mantis.

Hello Beautiful Day

[image: stroketheyfrost]

Baking at the residence earlier this week was really fun since Betty and Connie were stuffing freshly baked cookies and muffins in my mouth everytime I was near the oven. When I'm an old granny, I want to be of the lovable huggable goodie-baking variety. Anyone interested in biking trips to Iona Beach? 25-30 km approx. roundtrip but it's not too bad considering it's virtually flatness, lol. When you go outside, make sure you slather on the sunscreen!

In other news, I've restarted the antibiotic regiment for my strep... 80 frickin' pills, lol. blargh. All because I didn't change the toothbrush. Ah well, suits me for being silly. Course registration for the winter semesters is tomorrow morning and I'm a little at loss for what to take. My fun electives are going to be CLST 301 and FNH 313. Didn't think learning greek/latin medical terminology or microbes in food would be fun, lol. We'll see.

<3 cookies and sunshine!

we became art in the sand

[image: Farrokh Chothia]

the Isle of View will always be
paradise...

...no matter where i am.

orgasmic coconut buns!!!

lol, yeah... I went wtf also... until I realized that it was dude trying to sell buns on the beach.
"You want some buns?"

A la folie... pas du tout.

collecting things

Jasmine at the light of dawn,
to contemplate the mind that walks on water.
my dearest, I am making bitter winter melon soup,
just to savour the sweet.

I wish I had put this in your back pocket

dude, your nut is showing

haha, suckers
I hope they have fun off-roading, lol.

Mmmm, almond slivers are so delectable in small amounts. I am slowly trying to make small lifestyle changes but it's only left me craving for meat and salt... and lamb burgers with goat cheese. There's green tea pocky and cow candy sitting on my desk and it's so tempting to eat.

Does anyone want to make a kickass pie with me?
(I've never made a pie before, btw)

<3 dr. h

I bet you think this is pretty mesmerizing

whoaaaaaaa

dead sonata

[image: bittertaste]

what 3 chords to oblivion do you strike at this moment?
I know this: he is beautiful
You are beautiful.
Let us become the warm sand to which the fingers of the wind embrace
and make music.
each one of us, a grain of sand
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aren't there times when you just want to steal the prof's brain for an exam?
My effing O. Chem final is tomorrow. When this is done, I want to spend time with all of you who matter most. <3333 And get back to my computer ways again. Now, to remind me: mandarin orange pulpy drink; lunch; retro lunch; green tea pocky; jamaican rum; alize; ryc; kabuki; school schedule; scarabs; water binging; sour shooters; cleanup; microbiology; akira; wild flowers; blading; running; bikebikebike. I miss you guys

i want to sleep.

meow?

seriously?

Yesterday morning was terrifying. I woke up to turn on the sink to brush my teeth and lo and behold, there was the biggest brownest grossest spider in the sink trying to escape. I was too freaked out to do anything, lol... though I think I accidentally scalded it to death with the hot water that was running... I was too scared to shut if off. There's remnants of spiderweb strewn in the sink and the darn spider was too big to wash down the drain pipe. After some poking, it went away. Don't get me wrong, spiders are wonderful creatures of nature and I try to save them when I can but gosh almighty, they can be so scary because they're so fast and unpredictable. I don't think I'll be handwashing my clothes in the sink for awhile... namely because of unseen spider germs everywhere... Guuuuuuh!

On another note, chamomile and honey tea tastes gross. I bet when we turn old, our skin would taste like chamomile... all musky and herbal-like :S

Right now, I feel like beating down a punching bag. I don't know why there are times that I'm overfilled with just bitter frustration. Most other times, I'm alright. If it's time to move on then it's time to move on... there's no point in dwelling.

Cuz baby, hoping is out of style
the seasons are changing their clothes.
Put on your old records dah-lin', it's time to show the world what you've got!

alize, please

let everything happen.

Well, I'm just going to quickly post something before going to bed in a bit. I'll be refraining or generally away for msn again for the next little while in order to lock down and prepare of a chem final this friday. It'll probably be of little use as you can see.. I <3 the internets too much. I'm basically effed for chem. lol, I just realized that I missed the hardass 6 hour review session today but as long as I've got past exams it should be at least.. "okay". I went to Bel's birthday dinner at the keg tonight and it was delicious as usual, lol - prime rib and horseradish is too yummy! After Beaty introduced me to like one episode of Cowboy Bebop and GitS the flood of stuff has just been coming, lol. Seaian sent me the whole bebop collection and Greg and Milo handed me off a stackload of stuff. So basically I'll be holing myself at home for the next little while after the final probably undergoing spontaneous seizures in front of the computer. I think after the final I'll treat myself to nutso-ness and sleep. Saturday, I plan on visiting Mayne Island since Seaian said he'd show me around so I'm going to be all touristy-like and take a helluva lot of pictures... apparently the place is just overrun with scotch broom, lol. Afterwards, I want to plan another huge ass bike trip... possibly around Richmond? There's so much to do but so little at the same time. I think I need to take up a few new hobbies to just help find a new or more refreshing mindset these days. I have knots in my stomach still... too many loose strings. time to snip snip snip. anyways, nucleophilic acyl substitutions and malonic esters... then review! eff.

and everything I touch turns to stone

[image: catherinesoto]

an overcast blanket to warm you in transit
bring your attention back to the lines on your hand
and contemplate that half finished crossword puzzle.
the cold coffee and pastry crumbs
sitting at home
half finished on your tongue.

perhaps

grit.in.your.teeth.
Take that frustration and funnel it towards experiencing the rain. Then suddenly, everything feels eclipsed and beautifully humble.
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I planted a bunch of wildflower seeds in my tiny circle part of the garden yesterday. I think one can teach themselves patience by revelling in the fine art of nurturing. Tent caterpillars and crab grass are absolutely unbearable. They're back in full force again this year uuuurgh! On another note, Royce is moving to Toronto and visiting New York in two months to pursue his ambitions - I'm gonna miss that boy to bits because I know he'll be successful with his artful talents. Maybe one day I'll see his work in Marvel or DC and I'll be so proud!

Now! Instead of being all broken-hearted about baking unwanted cookies I'm going to clean and read more Kabuki.

"I want to have your abortion"

[image: bruko]

the fine art of selfless self destruction of the autonomous variety.
riding on freeways
charging forward: $100 / half hour.
I never cared about the money, the glitz and glamour
it's nice to feel wanted in that half an hour.

rest less

Rupert, what should I do?

from the stale taste of recycled air

[image: strokethyfrost]

i am no more a stranger to you than you are, to me. apparently, I can be read like a children's book. You know my name and where I live. Your sustenance of hearsay white picket fences, shields and protects your sense of self worth and integrity. I think you might be missing out.

congrats grads

Happy Grad Shay-head!
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Alrighty, I passed my midterm so I'm all good... the final's in two weeks! I know I can do hella better. Anyways, I think I'm turning into a dyke - I bought birkenstocks and stuck red stuff in my hair. YES!

I'll sleep now and talk later. g'nite, y'all

(1S,2S)-2-methylamino-1-phenylpropan-1-ol

I love this stuff
nyquil and pingu and green dots
bahahaha

I hate these reaction mechanisms
PAD PEAD PAD PED PAD PAD PAD

Man, I hate being sick. I can't wait until I'm done these antibiotics so I can taste food again. The strep throat's gone but I've got a killer stuffy/runny nose. I'm going to fail this exam.

I wonder

where does your shadow go while you sleep?
and whom do you whisper for in your sleep?
i wonder.
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I think Rupert will give me good luck. :)

i felt a cold shoulder brush against my cheek

[image: Melissa Cordova]

just keep running
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I cannot deny that I wake up scared. For the longest time I thought I could stand strong and defiant - steadfast in my beliefs. Bare foot on pavement, my legs were supposed to be roots. She told me to breathe slow and deep, but I've become too aware of my surroundings. I panic. I started to cry today when a stranger touched my arm.

I think I'm harbouring a heavy loathing for what I grew up to love. For the longest time, I thought I needed to prove myself. I am completely aware that my self esteem has gone to crap. The doubt and contempt that broods in the minds and mouths of temples, has made me question me. I feel the need to change myself. Perhaps materialize into someone uncaring and selfish. I didn't realize that smiling and extending kindness were considered faults.

I don't know... to the people who have gotten to know me... am I really that bad?