Despite

what you say, I'm still feeling off centre.

I remember from American Beauty that the worst feeling in the world is to feel ordinary. I want flaws that make me feel beautiful. Someday... I really wish I could stop someone in their tracks. It's not necessarily that physical beauty per se, but that aura of personality that you could embrace from afar. As of current, I feel really inadequate and I know I'm slowly losing control... I just want to be noticed because I feel like I'm just in a competition for you.

so small.