XXX - Rifampicin

I just finished my third cup noodle and slice of pizza in 4 hours. Now I'm downing another bag of chips, delicious. lol, I think it's a stress thing. I hate exams.. I'd rather write papers than face a shitty exam. Or maybe I'm just a whiner and complainer.
Sexy, oh so sexy.

So close.

So I stepped on the scale today... I think I've gotta a shed a few. Not got to, mind you.... it's Christmas time and I'm planning to let go... but while at it, be able to go on runs or biking again. It's a feel good thing, y'know... getting oxygen into your head (in which I'm severely lacking right now). Ask me to run a block and I'm telling you, I won't last a minute. Damn media and consumerism. I love how you tell me what's beautiful. It's such a game. Maybe I should be a part of it... maybe I should play too. Be wasteful, be unabashed, be so "Jane". Jane, the leo. Go tiger, *mrow*. ;)

I'm just feeling so guilty right now. I'm thinking more and more about the people that I care the most for and I've just let go. I'm just stuck in a mind rut right now. I miss Machala to bits. I'm scared to e-mail or send a letter or contact her, because I miss her. I don't know what to do. Perhaps I've lost myself... in realization that my self esteem has shrunk so much.

*sigh*

Que sera.