in the end, we stand alone

You know, I prefer to be in the company of males than females. I don't really know why. Perhaps it's just female intuition and the primal instinct to protect oneself. Females are vicious creatures... I know this because I call myself jealous jane.

I recently found my journal I kept during high school. I was convinced I lost it but I had hid it away in an old binder, paranoid someone would find it and discover my secrets. I don't keep secrets anymore. Reading it through, I think I understand why I am the way I am a little bit more. Machala saved me. she changed my life. I also understand why I tend to be so pensive during social gatherings with the characters from high school. Man, I was such an emo kid. literally. I even wrote emo poems!! But what. the. fuck. This blog is emo.

ps. emo = eat more oreos

furthermore, I've gained back all the weight I lost during the first half of summer. Not muscle, that's for sure, lol. But that's okay. I'm more concerned about money for textbooks at the moment. I've bought most of them for 3 out of 4 courses. The final total will probably ring in at over $700, which includes used textbooks. I'm taking 3 biology courses and a sociology course. feck. I seriously contemplate about turning tricks for money because it's so damn easy. stripping would be fun if I ever ever had the body for it, lol. Those experiences will definately make my memoir interesting.