Dr. Hofmann in the sun

It's been past the three day hump. I haven't gone for this long without talking to Gabriel. I'm just Missus uber procrasinator these past few days. It's finally hit me that finals are coming and I'm so royally bum fucked for them. But that's okay - I've been in a good mood lately. I just need to learn to sleep. Gabe's boxers are still lying around from months ago. Jeebus - I'm such a cross-dresser. So much dust. I'm so soft all over... what happened to metabolism? lol. I think it's fair time to set some sort of regiment to follow - lest I spiral more out of control. Ironically, I find it easier to run now.. albeit my knees and hips are uncomfortable doing so. No Sun Run this year - the cost is like $35 for late registration. Perhaps next year. Biking is where the fun is at anyways. I think it's going to be trail exploring when finals are over.

April is coming up. 2 years.
So I'll practice doing a strip tease for the shadows on my walls.
pourquoi?

Raindrops are falling on my head

I still remember the routine for that years ago... and we had those ugly blue umbrellas.
Anyway, I didn't fail my midterm for math - just barely passed so I'm exalting with joy. Not really, but you know. I only had 3 hours of sleep last night. It was sweet. Completing and prepping labs last minute kix. I isolated and purified solid caffeine from a cola drink today... I felt like I was cutting up cocaine. My room needs to be thorougly reorganized and I gotta crack down for school. (like i've been saying all year round)

Rain in the forecast for the rest of the week so there's no frisbee throwing. I wonder if Machala got my package and I hope Gabe's faring well down south. Miss those two poochers. They rock my socks off. (aka pollution NOx your SOx off - I miss Mr. Currie's little memory thingies)

A question aside: why are short/petite women usually so hot?
*le sigh*

I shouldn't make broad sweeping generalizations like that. I wade in dangerous waters. right now I'm just rambling on about nothing because my fingers feel like typing. And regarding the Terry Schiavo case in the news. Just let it be, I don't think prodding in other people's business like that should be magnified to such proportions. Staunch political agendas I say. Anyway, wtf am I talking about. no one reads this crap. I'm tired. Bed time. g'nite.

Aloha

To the sound of movement

"Dancing is a perpendicular expression of a horizontal desire."
--George Bernard Shaw

I wish that I'm dancing with someone right now.
With fingers placed gently where they should be -
Our feet are fluid,
our minds enveloped.
Just a taste of desire that within us, yearn.

It's just a dance.
and it was just a kiss
to start the music - bliss,

And now I'm here.

(desiring to dance once again)

in the company of wolves

You know...

These quizzes are so damn addictive.

You scored as Canada. You’re polite, friendly and pretty much an all around nice person. Everyone wants you at the party but at the same time no one really cares if you don’t show. You might consider hitting the gym once in a while. Canada 80% Kyrgyzstan 50% Great Britain 45% France 30% United States 30% What country are you? created with QuizFarm.com

** Happy Birthday Machala!! **

xelibri

I love this song in the commercial.. I don't know what it is though.

http://www.kontraband.com/show/show.asp?ID=1068&rtn=index-potd

"Love is an irresistable desire to be irresistably desired."
- Robert Frost

This sounds about right

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	Moderate
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

and and and

My TA confirmed that I officially can't write and need serious help. Baha, big surprise considering all the frantic little notes of "awkward" my TA scribbled along the margins. I think my writing is too thick to understand most of the time.. and according to Alvin, it's like reading a biology article/paper.
I also wrote a calculus midterm I failed yesterday. :)

So in other words, I got all depressed and teary when I got home because I worked so frackin' hard, especially for that stupid paper. The ironic thing is that I honestly enjoy some of the things I'm learning at school. But with runny shit marks on record, I can't help but just want to give up. I'm feeling the pressure of having to choose a program/major already and I don't know what to do. One thing that's for sure is that I don't belong in the Arts. My lab partner recently got admitted into pharmacology for third year. Around 500 people applied for that program this year and only 20 were selected. The same goes for everything else: medical lab sciences (pathology), microbiology, biochemistry, chemistry/biology, pharmacy. My viable option that I want to do is to shoot for nursing.. around 350 people apply and 50-60 students get admitted into third year. Apparently UBC nursing is really crappy and I'd probably be better off at BCIT/ Kwantlen/Douglas College. I just feel like I'm taking a step backwards but forwards at the same time. Oh, what to do.

But today was fun. Got picked up and headed off to Greg's to meet up with a bunch of guys for a biking trip. We went to Ironwood and ended up eating at this wun tun place. Passed by my old kindergarten school ('twas a little house at the end of Shell Rd.) - oh the memories. Afterwards, we just played pool at Greg's again.. good stuff. We're going to have to Risk and Mario Party it up next time of course. w00t. But sleep for the meantime.

Where ever the wind blows

you can always dance

Thank goodness for this cup of oolong. I needed to wake up. If I were to lavish myself in some sort of hobby when I'm older, I think the fine art of tea will be it. The small delicate cups and elaborate pots crafted from certain clays and soils are so fascinating to look at and use. Tea leaves tell their own story. Unfortunately.. such variety in something so simple can lead to one's ruin as I've been forewarned.

I have a math midterm in about 12 hours. And to be frank, I've never been less prepared for any exam. I just want the relief of this to be over. I effing hate probability because it assumes for conditions that are absolute. If there's one thing that's absolute in this world, it is that nothing is certain.

2 more chapters to wrap my head around. Then it's bed time.

and tomorrow

a kiss is more intimate than sex

and now for something completely unrelated

*shrugs*, that's randomness for ya.

So anyways, Caitlin's off to Europe and Seaian's off to Japan. Happy tripping to everyone!

So I've decided to complain again. I can't fit into most of my pants. This is getting ridiculous. So now I'm feeling like such a slob. I guess it's back to the atypical baggy clothes and crap. So much for new year's resolutions. Jonathan's coming back this week/next week from Hawaii and I bumped into a familiar face from those Homma days. This re-iteration kind of gets redundant after awhile. I need to finish reading Life of Pi and get my ass into gear. I've got a math midterm thursday and to be frank.. I can't bring myself to give a damn. This whole future and education thing really sucks. I am officially going nowhere. Nursing?? bahahaha.. c'est near impossible.

But on a lighter note, I think I need to be less invasive about certain private matters. But hey, at least it grabs attention.

Entropic

See, dancer legs.

Yesterday's 'A Talk With Matt Good' was how I predicted. Interesting to say the least, heh. I took Caitlin there yesterday and by gosh, I can't drive in Vancouver (let alone in the rain). Too many darned one-way streets. I'm glad I didn't go alone... E. Hastings still looks the same as I remember. Remember to vote on this upcoming provincial election May 17th (I'm still too young, lol). Walking away from that discussion, I agree that it isn't necessarily voter apathy that keeps the youth away from the polls.. it's the sense of futility and responsibility that comes about giving a shit. It's going to come and bite us in the bum sooner or later.
Sushi dinner was in store afterwards. But the night ended early and I didn't end up enjoying drinks and pretentious laughter as I wanted... but oh well, I don't really have a crowd.

I finally got an e-mail back from Machala a couple of days ago and by gosh, it's good to hear from her again.. I was beginning that I was a worthless friend... :(

Happy Birthday to everyone who has their birthdays this month!
I'll be designated driver and chaffeur people home as needed... (or not, because a dead kid from McMath seems to mean nothing to a lot of people). Cheers to responsibility.

I'm feeling so out of my head right now, my arms are so grossly elongated and warped. I just ate a frickin' bowl of cereal, a huge slab of steak and leftover salmon from two days ago. Little wonder why I bruise and never heal. my glucose levels are off the charts (but at least the heart palpitations have gone.. *knocks on wood*).

By: afterthequake

//the world's constant tragedy was
bruised by accident, in the palm
of a girl's hand, upon the fragile,
translucent petals of an orange
[b]lossom. the bruises
mimicked the blue-green
intricacies

of vein,
lining the girl’s
frail hand.//

--afterthequake

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The computer does not lie. the computer does not lie. the computer does not lie.
I'm thinking of Silverstein's "The Missing Piece".
No one else would understand, save for one...

i miss.

So grounded.

I thought I saw a man brought to life

how intuitive

Whoa mang, Jenn is so hawt

hooray! *whistles*

Anyways, I've gotta lose weight.
Enough said.

So! Who else wants to scale a 12 foot wall with me? Storm the Wall is going to be running in a week and the preparations for it are crazy. Serena, Alvin and I want to do it. It's pretty much a relay where one person swims, another bikes, another sprints and everyone scales a 12 foot wall... it's insane. Though this is probably best left until next year, heh. Teams have to have 5 or 6 people and co-ed in this case. I just want to experience this before I graduate - it's the largest intramural event in Canada.

I've finally come to the conclusion that I am an "alternative-type" friend.
lol, but no worries - I'm pretty proud of that fact. In other news, I also want to try taking exotic pole dancing lessons next year. Apparently stripper-cise is excellent for the body all-round. Besides, who doesn't want to scope out hotties? Lvl 2 involves knee-high length boots and all. :) That is if I can fit my ridiculously big calves into them, lol.

In other news, Arts County Fair in a month - I'll buy tix if anyone wants if you pay me back... $20
Aaaand, if anyone else is interested - I want to go to "A talk with Matt Good" next saturday on the 19th @ 7 pm, in Vancouver. Tix are $5 at the door. We'll basically be getting into interactive discussions about democracy, voting and the like. I'm such a geek, so I'll probably end up going on my own... in Chinatown mang, Chinatown!

So, here's Jenn... jeebus - how the hell does one find gorgeousness? Matt's wife, ha.

Smoke baby, pour alcohol baby, cocaine in montreal

"I'm going to call 9-11 the next time you do this, Jane"
Okay.

Sylvia was a fantastic play. Heh, I just wish I had more than 3 hours of sleep.
Next week sometime is Arcadia... it's going to be 3 hours long so I don't know what to expect. The play seems confusing - I think it'd be something Alvin would enjoy. It basically revolves around the clashing of two different time frames in 1809 and 2005 - and exploring the idea of coexistence. In regards to simple systems - does one use the explanations of scientific reasoning that are proveable to understand the processes involved? Or is it all really bullshit to explain things with science because primeval human instincts dictate what is logical?

blah blah blah. Tix are $8 if anyone is interested. english sucks now.

I would like to talk more... but I guess I'm all trivial sometimes.
Is once a flame/sunshine burnt out... always a flame at heart?
Combustion always yields carbon of some sort... it requires a fire and oxygen.
Neutralization involves the addition of a strong acid and strong base to yield water and salt.
My fingers hurt from building these damned molecules... but it reminds me of lego!
And lego reminds me of Prego tomato sauce.
And Prego sauce reminds me of Preggo from Insaniquarium!
okay, i'll go to bed.

"A horse! A horse! My kingdom for a horse!" --Richard III, V.4.13

I might as well turn this computer off.
Good Riddance.

pew! pew! pew!

Oh my gosh, I'm so tired and sleepy. I shouldn't have watched that documentary.
I also splurged.. on so much food. Right now, I'm growing frustrated with this paper that I haven't even started on. I was hoping to get the damned thing done and over with so I could get it checked over by a few people. My secret is, I can't write... I can't formulate ideas and write about them properly. I lack substance.
exactly why I never pursued the arts.

In other news, I have a burning desire to just get a fake id. I want to go clubbing. But I'm just being naive. And totally selfish. So will you be my girlfriend?
Better than lying in bed alone with half a bottle of bacardi, mingling with petty thoughts on a friday night.

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I want to regret one night. Do things I would never do. Pass out on the side of the street in the rain... gloriously happy. And listen, the orchestra would be playing, sweetly serenading the other heartbeat in the stone of my belly. Just waiting to be noticed.
I want to be indestructable.
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Let's go out for some coffee, Cait <3

ohhhh, snap

Eric Prydz - Call on Me

such a fun video.

Tonight, my ghost will speak with your ghost

Oh goodness... there's going to be a LotR marathon at the SUB theatre next week... as well as a Star Wars one as well, lol.

Anyways, I suppose I'll be off... my heart is in my mouth over getting these exams back... I know the outcomes aren't too great. Hardy haaar haaar.

Enjoy your day my loves.